The First Year Anniversary

It’s almost one year after her passing, and I’m not sure I’m doing any better now than I was a year ago.

Immediately after her passing I was numb. I’m not sure what I felt. At the time I did my best to push my emotions down. I didn’t want to cause my wife any discomfort. She had enough as it was.

I sometimes feel that I was wrong to suppress my emotions. Did she know how much I really loved her? I think she did, but how can I know now?

Okay, let’s start over. It’s the first year anniversary. After today, none of the events are new. It seems like this will make things easier on me. I’m looking forward to that.